So it’s pretty interesting how life works.. One day you think you have it all down and the next your like… well what the hell happened there.
This is what has been going on.
Upon arriving in the US I was nervous that I was going to have issues with immigration. With being out of the country for over 6 months and a few other hiccups there was a possibility it would still not be valid. Everything seemed to be fine, got through all good.
I was selling my house as I decided I wanted to remain in Sydney and I could no longer rent it out. After arriving to the states with some serious Jet lag and a whole list of things that I had to do while I was here which seems impossible to do- I started checking things off the list. I was super stressed and emotional but was getting it done.
I then noticed my green card was missing I thought Oh this is going to be really annoying to get back- I didn’t realise until a few days later exactly how “annoying” it would be.
Losing my green card means I can not leave this country without getting a new one without some serious repercussions. It is considered abandoning residence and is frowned upon.
To get a new green card takes up to two months… sometimes more. So I am in lock down.
This means 2 months in NYC where I have to sort things out in Sydney as I can’t be paying rent in two places, figure out what I am going to do for work, cancel on speaking arrangements ect. ect. A LOT to think about, process and do.
When this all happened the world felt a bit like it was crashing around me. It felt like I was finally getting it all together and figuring it all out then this happens? I was doing fine.. I was on my path, feeling stable and happier than I had ever been. Then this came up and I was like seriously!?!? I was dealing with everything and then this was lumped on top of it? I was fall apart mess on the floor- I probably could have handled a little bit better if I wasn’t already emotional and under pressure. Everything that I wasn’t thinking about before because I had “stuff to do” all came to the surface. Every coping mechanism shut down and I had a fall apart day. I do have to say that I have very speedy recovery on fall apart moments.
I was on Skype the other night to a close friend of mine who helps me through a lot of things, is a great support to me and is an amazing friend. He helped me realise that I have another way to look at this situation. He said “This situation is PERFECT…” I was like what the hell are you talking about? This isn’t perfect, this is the opposite to what I wanted to happen. There was a lot of awesome things that happened within that conversation. To not see this as an opportunity would be a mistake. And he helped me see that (after about an hour and some tears)
I have a feeling I wouldn’t have had to make this decision again if I was just supposed to shrug and say oh well. Something changes in you when you have to fight for something. Sure you have to choose your battles… but I feel everything in my life is happening for a reason. Every challenge that I come up against always results in me coming out the other side better, stronger, with a different perspective on things and sheds light on new opportunities.
It is so hard to see things as a new exciting opportunity when they have repercussions that aren’t so great and when it comes at a really inconvenient time.. but this is something that is challenging, exciting and I am going to go through it with an open mind and an open heart and I am sure it will turn out great.
I want to say a very special Thank You to Samuel- A great boss, leader and friend for being so supportive and fantastic, and also to Tash and Tom who have gone above and beyond to help me sort things out.
Thank you to everyone who is helping me right now and as siting me and supporting me on this amazing adventure called life.